Chronicle 55 - Jaded January

One month into 2013 and I'm already feeling the weight from school and work. I've realized it's pretty challenging to juggle both aspects simultaneously. It's not so much about having adequate time then having adequate self-discipline to follow through.

Work hasn't exactly been smooth this month. I've recently been switched over to teach at another class, and that class is very challenging to handle due to the greater number of students and their lack of respect of authority. I have to take it to the extreme and shout at them to gain perhaps a few minutes of quiet compliance. A few weeks prior, I went to fetch a few primary school kids from their school back to the centre. One particular kid was crying, screaming, and making a scene at the school gate, simply refusing to go back to the centre. After permission from my boss, I lifted him up and carried him out. Amidst his struggling and all, I suffered a face palm from him. There was also once when I misjudged the time and was late for work. I didn't realize it till quite late, and when I found out, my boss's text message of "Where are you? Are you reaching soon?" was staring right at my face. I panicked and immediately took a cab down, but then again, I was already late.

As for studies, it didn't seem any better either. The modules are indeed living up to their name of 3rd year modules indeed. I can't seem to make sense of certain readings no matter how many times I review them. Anyway, I've grouped with a hyper passionate and enthusiastic group of people for a certain module. A certain proposal of ours were not selected to be the theme for a conference. Although "passion" >>> "expectation" >>> "disappointment", we took it in out stride and bounced back pretty quickly. I went for a movie [Cloud Atlas] with my group mates last week, and the movie was beautifully made in my opinion. After the movie, we went for supper.

Reservist is coming! And my physical condition is pathetic. Since I took up the job, I have been slacking in my runs. I'm losing motivation from all sides. I need another dose of it soon before I completely degenerate into my past self. This is gonna be a demanding trimester but I don't want to neglect too many stuff too.

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