Humble pie... Never liked it, but was forced fed a few times in my life. This month, I've eaten that unpleasant pie from my sisters and some friends. Quite a number of people have also commented that I've grown more cocky. I need to learn to let go of stubbornness and admit defeat. Damn it!
I've finished the last round of assignments and exams for this trimester, and it was extremely tiring to say the least. Instead of difficulty, the problem is time, or the lack of it. Everything is so demanding of my time and I just couldn't seem to give each one a fair amount. It seems I wasn't the only one feeling exhausted after the trimester concluded. I've accumulated many hours of sleep debt in the process. That said, my group mates did make it more bearable. While they can be annoying at times, they always seem to amuse me in many ways. It's been a few weeks since we concluded our project and I guess I actually do kinda miss them?
Just like that, another trimester has come to an end. Just 1 more and I'll be ... ... lost. I've experienced the drain from the assignments and exams, and have wished on many occasions for them to end. However, I do not have a concrete plan for my future direction, and that paradoxically actually scares me.
Usually, the discovery of mutual friends should be met with joy. But sometimes, it makes you panic! The world is so small! This misunderstanding may actually be an advantageous cover for me. Now I need to make sure he stays silent...
I feel pretty grateful this birthday year. As per tradition, C and F celebrated my birthday with a simple meal. I also tried boulder climbing with F. My arms were sore and my fingers blistered after the climbs. Looks like I need to curb these youthful tendencies and go for more relaxing activities instead. On my family's side, my parents and aunt brought me out for seafood. Haven't had a meal together in a long long time. Sometimes, spending time with family isn't so bad (provided everything is peaceful of course). My university course mates also celebrated my birthday. The thought and the i-pod were very welcome. The whatever tart though, was so sweet I almost puked. Thank God I had water.
Just something that is lingering on my mind: On my birthday, I missed a call. Somehow, I feel a certain sense of regret and wished that I could have picked it up.
Anyway, I just got back from Bangkok two days ago. It was fun and the break was very welcome after the tiring trimester. To think that me of all people would actually use up my money. Bangkok is a dangerous place.
While I was in Bangkok, I've had the chance to think many things through. It's strange how your mentality can differ when you're overseas. It feels as if I'm a different person considering my thoughts. On hindsight, now that I'm back in Singapore, perhaps I really need to "think more, brood less".
This post is kinda choppy because I need to settle some stuff right now. If I feel like it, I might elaborate more on the subsequent post. Oh ya, before I forget! C and F, there's a new reader of this blog. Maybe I'll address this reader as M? Don't ask me why I allowed it. I have no idea!
[Quotes]
"Conviction is a strange thing. Damn if you have it, damn if you don't." - Self
"武藝再高， 高不過天，
資質再厚， 厚不過地。
人生無常， 何談可惜。 " - 宮二
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