Chronicle 65 - I deserved this?

After all that job search, I've finally landed a job. It wasn't without help though. I decided to crash an ex-lecturer's class one day to meet my coursemates for dinner, which resulted in my lecturer offering to keep a look-out for me. She reverted a week later with a personal contact, and told me to follow through. The 1st round of interview though, was rather difficult. It was the very 1st time that I was forced to say, "I'm sorry, I do not know" to a certain question. The 2nd round of interview wasn't easy either, as I had to take a written test. Writing certainly isn't the problem, but the content is. Half expecting to have flunked, I was surprised when they followed up with an offer letter a few days later. It would be a lie if I said it was something I'm passionate about, and therefore, like always, couldn't really make up my mind if I should take it up. I don't exactly know why I did in the end, but it seems that it has something to do with me feeling a sense of entitlement to it, especially since I felt the process was difficult. The "This didn't come easy" and "I earned/deserved it" mentality, combined with encouraging views from a few friends made me say yes - I guess. It's been one week into the job, and I can already feel the pressure to get things up to speed. It's not exactly very flattering when a girl is pointing out your mistakes, which happens quite often. At least my superiors were pretty nice. They took the time out to meet me for lunch just to make sure I have comfortably settled in (obviously I'm not at the moment though).

The weekend before I started work, I went bouldering with D. So much for a full-day pass, when we only bouldered for a few hours. Well, not that we were any good anyway. Still, it was good to have company. During dinner, I was surprised that she was pretty forthcoming with certain information. And one more thing, she actually made me walk my dog while sending her to the train station (been ages since it has been walked).

Sometime further back, I met my coursemates for a drink, and a passing comment from me started a cat-and-mouse conversation with a friend. It went something like:

>>> You think I don't know?
>>> I don't know if you do know.
>>> I think I know.
>>> What do you think you know?
>>> I think I know whatever you think I do not know.

Sometimes, it can be very difficult to get this particular friend to be specific. And this wasn't the only issue either. It seems she has some frustrations about other things, but would only drop a few hints here and there. This one seems a bit more obvious though. 

My university mates are doing a Christmas gift exchange again this year. Why do I always draw the hard ones? But then again, almost everyone would be difficult for me. Last year's gift was secured pretty last minute, and I don't think I want a repeat of that this year.

I was dragged by F to his secondary school class gathering yesterday. While I do know his classmates, some of whom are my friends as well, I was pretty lazy to attend. F was pretty persistent though, and I eventually went. I haven't seen some of those guys (and girls) in a while, so it was actually a good time to catch up. Overseas studies, work, and marriage seems to be the trend. As there was a girl that I didn't really know, one friend was urging me to go talk to her. I though that was pretty funny. By the way, that girl is quite pretty.

[Quotes]
"We build too many walls and not enough bridges." - Issac Newton

"I had hoped to be disliked by most, not by way of rebellion, but by way of excellence, disdain for the habitual, and the common man's inability to grasp this. The act of being scorned? I saw it as a victory, my irreverent boast against this world which could never fully quench me." - Coco J. Ginger