Monday, December 31, 2018

Chronicle 107 - Turnabout is fair play

It has been about half a year since I last posted but much has happened over this period and I thought to give a quick wrap up before 2018 concludes.

Sometime in the middle of the year, we were invited to pitch for an e-cigarette company. There were some discussions as to whether we should be working for them and management eventually decided that we can work for them as long as the team members on the account are comfortable. The argument as I understand it, is that many people would die from smoking traditional cigarettes anyway, so e-cigarette is an alternative which still allows smokers to get their nicotine fix without the combustion of tar which is supposedly the killer. Don’t really agree with this logic since there is absolutely no reason to get people hooked on nicotine, smoker or not, but I did tell my boss that if I have to, I will help out if required.

We then had a string of few new business wins with big names and big fees. The new Director CY also got us a blue-chip client. He sits right next to me so… talk about pressure! That said, it was a very difficult time for employees as everyone was getting crushed by the sheer workload.

CY and I were then scheduled to go on reservist at the same time in September, noting the workload and manpower state, my boss panicked and told both of us to request for deferment. My request failed but fortunately, CY’s unit granted him the deferment.

Our new Operations Manager, JT, decided to organise a cooking class for the team as part of a team-bonding exercise. We were asked to cook paella (first time I ever heard that term). We were supposed to form teams of four and as I was the odd one out which nobody wanted on their team, was designated to be the instructor chef’s assistant.

Reservist this time was fine. It was quite challenging to get in touch with work and I just gave up all together. Right after reservist, I only had a week in the office before I would leave for my trip to China, Cangzhou – the second stop in my Martial Arts World Tour. The martial art I was seeking to learn then, was Bajiquan. Even when I was in China, I did try to get in touch with work, but it was very difficult due to the lack of a stable connection – I also eventually gave up and decided to focus on my trip. The trip was very enjoyable, although the training was tough. After the first day of training, my legs were so sore I had to take a break the next day. I then progressively excused myself from the night classes and then the runs. They must have thought I was a weakling! I am just going to chalk that up to old age. I drank quite a bit of baijiu (and some other alcohol) when I was in China. Being the foreigner, I would always be offered and would have to offer a toast to everyone present during meals. I didn’t have much experience with baijiu previously, but it was horribly strong and whenever I got back to my room, would try to gulp down litres of water to hydrate myself.

The extended period of which I was away from office and work would give me much time to think and reflect.

When I eventually got back to work, I struggled very much to get back into the flow of things and did feel rather lost at times. I had many continuous nights of working past midnight which was really draining.

My boss then told me to accompany her to the UK to attend a company gathering. I didn’t really want to go since I was swamped with work at that time and it would be disruptive, but I didn’t have enough “social capital” then to worm myself out. I thought long and hard when I was at the airport and during the incredibly long flight, and made a decision. The company gathering was at a hotel in the countryside in Hampshire which was peaceful and quiet, and was a chance for me to meet many of my colleagues from the UK.

After Hampshire, my boss gave me a ride to London where I will be working over the next few days at the company HQ. In the car ride, we spoke about how the Asia office has come a long way and I decided to tell her about the decision I made on the flight. I resigned. She said that she knew the time would come eventually, and she knew that I would not change my mind once I had decided to move on. I then proceeded to say that I am aware of how swamped everyone is with workloads and “within a reasonable period of time, I would like to help with the transition”. Long story short, that became a notice period of around 5 months. Not sure if that is the best move. Every single day here, now that I have resigned, is excruciating.

I have decided to teach after leaving and I know very well that that would mean starting from scratch since it is a mid-career switch. I will have to go through the NIE programme and work my way up. I expect a huge pay cut and some changes in lifestyle will be required. I have had mixed reactions from family and friends on my decision, but no matter – I know that this is going ahead.

I also caught up with a friend in the UK who has been seconded there for a long-term assignment. He has been my national service and reservist buddy for many years and yet another of my good friends who have either relocated or gotten married. LAB is relocating to San Francisco, LT is relocating to Tokyo and AS is married. I guess in a certain way, I am also moving on, although whether or not it is progress, is yet to be seen.

My dad had semi-retired previously but due to cash flow problems, had to go back to work. He first tried being a cab driver but was unable to take the working hours. He then went to be a security officer at Changi Airport and couldn't take it either. He now wants to break the bond and will need to pay a penalty fee. I know that he is advanced in age and that his back is giving him problems, but sometimes I really wonder if the problem lies in his outlook on life. He has been in the family business for so long, he doesn't really know what it is like to work for others. He doesn't keep up with technology. He constantly complains that such work is demeaning as he is a university graduate. As I am right now, I'm not sure I have the capability alone to ensure both my parents retire and also put my sisters through their studies.

To think some of my peers still consider me very wealthy...

[Quotes]

Progress isn't made by early risers. It's made by lazy men trying to find easier ways to do something.” - Robert Heinlein

And a step backward, after making a wrong turn, is a step in the right direction.” - Kurt Vonnegut

You will find that it is necessary to let things go; simply for the reason that they are heavy.” - C. JoyBell C.

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